A different perspective….

Life can be very kind to us…
Where your entire dream will just come true at the wink of an eye
Things that we wish for will keep on coming like a pouring rain
Everyone can be very kind & considerate to you..
You can’t keep smiling and feeling happy all the time...
And be thankful and hoping this bless will never come to and end...
But life can also be very mean to us..
When all your problem will comes rushing like a thunderstorm.
Things that you have work really hard to achieved just crumple into pieces
Just rite there at the front of your eye..
When you turn around and see anger faces around you...
The most you can do is to cry out loud and pray that it will go away..
And remind urself again and again, that this are all testing from God..
Life is sway of a rhythms...happy song, sad song, fun song, anger song and etc...Sing as your heart and spirit want to..
This is life. Enjoy the journey...and never think to hard on what the outcome will be..
For you know you have give the best shot of it…
Lesson Learnt:
1- The best thing happen in life when you least expect it to happen
2- We plan but God have greater plan for us...
3- Every one, have their own faith to be determined, we can ‘t do much to change that until they change for their own..

This entry is dedicated for sweet hubby who's always been there for me, he’s kind love and care is irreplaceable with any other thing that I can think off...
Whatever happen, it happen for a reason...I’m always proud of you dear, and will always, I mean forever will have strong faith of what you can do and someday will become of what you always dream off…
For my self for having such a low self esteem for the past few weeks...
For my dear sister who is always scared of trying and seems a bit lost at the moment
For my lil’ brother who always full of confidence...
And for the readers if it may in someway affected you in any ways.. : )

Sharing is something....

I did something gud today..nothing big but still..
it is something that makes me feel really gud..
so wat was it?
sharing...sharing the lesser with the person who need it most...almost badly as me...
without wanting anything in return..
I shud also thanks to the dearest person that remember to share with me...thank you dear..although u may neva know i dedicate this entry for you..
now, with that small portion..everyone was hoping in their prayers that this time around the prayers is granted...
Insya-allah......

When I feel like writing..

I feel like writing...
for my heart is no longer here..
my soul is empty to be filled with anything about here....
my ears ..its just dun want to hear anything relating to this place...
wats wrong with me?
i used to like it here..
i used to love e'one here...
i used to tire up myself for its sake..yet i'm doing it with happiness..
with every completion with a smile of satisfaction..
is it me?
or is it this place..
i dunno..
yet i care..coz it used to care for me
am i ok?
i think i am?
then wat went wrong?
I decided to move on..
as much as i call it moving on..
but deep inside a small voice whisper intensively..
you are trying to escape dun you..
face it Nen..and end it with pride.....

Overreacted?

To my limits i've tried...if failure is meant to be..then let it be.......
one thing about me is that when under a lot of pressure... i usually would not be able to control my stress and my anger...
it can sometimes hurt the feeling of those ppl that i care...stressful emotional and mentally.....(alter ego: so u think only u can be stressed, only you have the biggest problem on earth, is not like u'r saving the world..nen you are not heroes...even heroes face certain failure)
listening to my alter ego.. i do perfectly understand that comparing my level of stress can be very minimal or none at all to certain individual..but when if u put up my problem on only 1 individual.. i just cannot handle it.....it is really sad of me to admit it..but this is just me..and lame excuse..
current i'm being stress with
my supplier...for he cannot deliver the things he is supposed to.
my customer is chassing me for this, and i dun like to be pictured as if i had not dun enaf...
i mean, i can undertsand her pressure too..but situations is all beyond my control.
too many internal policy and procedures to bring the things in..
but if i can, ..i would..swear to God ...i want to able to honour my words....
I raise up my voice to my client, which i know i 'm not supposed to...i regret for what i did..
with so many mix up emotion I kinda of burst out to her...for not wanting to accept any excuses.....
say who customer is always rite? well is only applicable to me when i am the customer.....
to my mum i let go my dissapointment, in subtle way i put the blame on her as well..
though i knew she did her best..even spoke to my client explaining how things is...glad she able to calm her down.
things turn out ok..that's wat i can say..its not gud..but it's ok..
work pressure : dun even feel wanna discuss it here........
test pressure : i'm supposed to attend for another option of my career life, a test will be conducted to verify whether i'm the person they are looking for...in few days time i got to study a few financial concept, which i've never pay any attention before..plus i've left my test addicted attitude/ freaking scared when it comes to test or exams long back in my dorm campus.......how am i supposed to find it back.......e'time i look at those material..dun feel like reading at all.........what is wrong with me?? loosing my mind to stupidity and idleness.
I need a space.....space from e'thing and e'one........space and space and space.......fuh i need to seek HIS guidance on this..........

I Finally Found Someone

All of a sudden, this song kinda of hit me back..
Always with the same person : )

I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet I finally found the one, who makes me feel complete We started over coffee, we started out as friends It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin This time it's different It's all because of you It's better than it's ever been Cause we can talk it through My favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?" It's all you had to say to take my breath away This is it, oh I finally found someone Someone to share my life I finally found the one To be with every night Cause whatever I do It's just got to be you My life has just begun I finally found someone (ooh, someone) I finally found someone (ooh) Did I keep you waiting I apologize I would wait forever just to know you were mine And I love your hair I love what you wear You're exceptional I can't wait for the rest of my life This is it, oh Cause whatever I do It's just got to be you My life has just begun I finally found someone


Bryan Adams & Barbra Streisand