Suka Duka Lara

"i've been talking to myself..
i've been thinking a lot lately ...wat am i doing here..
i dun like a'more my presence and existence here..
it tires me..it worries me..it slowly is killing my joy..
i just dun want to be here a'more..
take me away from here...please........"

After a few unpleasant moments in life..
God shower upon me some happy moment yesterday and today..
though i was not really well but he blessed me with the best midday sleep ever that i've not been able to do for quite sometimes...
it was my mum bday, we went to Roadhouse Grill..chill out..a lot of laughters we shared and took a few pictures too...
i really do love my mum and dad..tears is rite now flowing from my cheeks..for i'm afraid to lose them as part of my life...
and for that..i promise to make them happy for as long as i could.....
apart from that, my 2 little cutie ( hamster name Gisselle and Sabel ), we took them about 4 months and yesteday she made me proud with 6 little minnie them..so sweet...makes me once again daydreaming that i too shall have a twins someday.. : )
well this morning..when i reach office..my superior told me that "he" the big boss appreciate my being in this department..well it makes me proud and managed to draw a smile on my dull round face..it like being lifted up once again after so long being trapped in a deep dirty hole.........i managed to take a deep breath huh..
above all, my sweet hubby is always there for me..
at wateva situations i'm facing...from the bad news to the greatest news he's always there...
i remember when we went to that place last month..when that nice guy told us the unpleasant news..i cried and he hold my hands all the way home..
neva ever did he pressure me or ask me a'thing..not until i'm ready to talk about it...
last 2 days somebody hurt my feeling and saying things that too me is such a shallow mind set / ceteknya pemikiran kamu...though i know its a donkey language but it still hurt my feeling..coz, too me...that donkey should neva question me or pass such remarks to me...
again my sweet hubby was there to protect me with his shinning armour : )
our love will always remain as it is for the past ...almost 10 years ...and with time and age...our love will grow even deeper.....ermm suamiku yg manis..saya sayang kamu...
as for now..i will continue to pray and hope e'thing will go just as we planned..........
plus...tak sabar nak pindah rumah baru : ))