My Career Shift...Big ???

I dream to do something more with my life and the right brain of mind have been pushing me into getting hers rights, so much that lately I've been very emotional with almost every aspect of my life.
I've got to channel my creativity and interest to do something that makes me happy and at the same time would be able to contribute income to support my daily needs.
All though trained in accounting by background I yield more in life, I love's number as it is the most accurate measurement for all achievement that I've achieved so far…Numbers in terms of my education line, my career line, my bank account saving, my age…yup I must admit that I'm a big fan of numbers...numerology yeah dat is so into me or i'm so into dat..erm?
Numbers and creativity do work hand in hand…they do skip together…they share the same journey…lately they cry together ???

Unlocked?

I'm sitting in front of my laptop, and again start thinking about what I really want in life...lately I've been meeting and talking to people from my circle that remind me how I used to be...with them I can be my real me...true colors are reveal and shinning even stronger …truth is I love being with them…not that I pretend to be sumone else with others is just that with them...word spoken is truth..half lie always result to truth..care is sincere..advise is for good...I can be outspoken while knowing nobody gets hurt..I can admit my own weakness coz I know they will search my strength...I can laugh and most I can cry letting down my tears without caring who's looking…while talking...I’ve realized how I’ve changed and how my life has changed..And all that I used want to be and has been, seems doesn't really matter anymore...I live for today as if tomorrow is so far ahead (half lie, coz I can get in my monotonous mode on the weekday) ...the only thing that keep my spirits alive every minute of my day is my love towards people that I care most and the thought that they has always been there for me and loving me in each of their own way... plus I've promise CH that I wanna grow old with him...most of my life I let nature work it cause…and I know God has fated the best for me…

Sumthing struck me when they (yeah this circle of people that I’ve meeting asked me when will I leave my job...live my dream as the perfect housewife...I smile and I smile again...yeah words were spoken, reasons were being given, justification and so on and on..yet I cud not answer to myself…when the time is right I guess...very subjective...typical me....

However, I'm glad...that the gate is always open for me to walk through..3 years back the gate was lock and guarded...slowly the guard left...then the lock were unlocked...And now the gate is wide open...just waiting for me to walk through...I will, god willing...but before that I want to ensure I'm emotionally ready to walk through it coz I'm hoping deep inside once I walk in...I want to enjoy every minute in it without any hesitation for turning back...

So let me just hang around a little while...enjoying the view from a far, anticipate what waits for me there...I know there is possibilities that the gate will be locked again...but I'm taking my chance here...after all that’s what life is all about : ) erm...yer ker?