Durian Feast

It’s that season of the year again. The season with unpleasant smell to some, but a delightful smell to others. For me and CH, it’s the best season of the year, a fiesta that has always been awaited for. Lucky for us, to share the same taste of madness towards this King of Fruits.

Last weekend, after a phone call from an Uncle ( we call him Chulan) who’s in charge of taking care the Durian orchard that belongs to the granddad of CH, we decided to went back to CH hometown and there begins the durian feast of the year.

Welcoming us is the great smell of Pengat Durian, Maksu homemade cooking is always difficult to turn away, and we enjoy the whole big bowl of Pengat Durian with of coz the glutinous rice.

Dinner is served with sambal tempoyak ( mind you the fresh flesh of durian meshed with chillies and anchovies) is a super addicted paste that can keep you wanting more and more…at the end you feel sinful to eat that much..owww…

I thot, that was the only durian feast ( besides that , we were served with continuous fresh durian peel straight from the orchard, the easiness of eating durian in Chulan’s place is like eating chips from a packet of Mister potato ( koyak, seluk and makan) , but breakfast on the next day is a surprise to me..Maksu is mashing the durian flesh with some sugar and flour…ohh and she’s is preparing a durian fritters…nyum2 is was simply delicious…ever wonder the taste with some vanilla ice-cream on top…marvelous!

There goes my weekend, spending time with love one ( accompany him to make him happy), fulfilling my duty and obligation as a wife and nurturing my natural taste bud…yes I’m a Durian addict…

My Career Shift...Big ???

I dream to do something more with my life and the right brain of mind have been pushing me into getting hers rights, so much that lately I've been very emotional with almost every aspect of my life.
I've got to channel my creativity and interest to do something that makes me happy and at the same time would be able to contribute income to support my daily needs.
All though trained in accounting by background I yield more in life, I love's number as it is the most accurate measurement for all achievement that I've achieved so far…Numbers in terms of my education line, my career line, my bank account saving, my age…yup I must admit that I'm a big fan of numbers...numerology yeah dat is so into me or i'm so into dat..erm?
Numbers and creativity do work hand in hand…they do skip together…they share the same journey…lately they cry together ???

Unlocked?

I'm sitting in front of my laptop, and again start thinking about what I really want in life...lately I've been meeting and talking to people from my circle that remind me how I used to be...with them I can be my real me...true colors are reveal and shinning even stronger …truth is I love being with them…not that I pretend to be sumone else with others is just that with them...word spoken is truth..half lie always result to truth..care is sincere..advise is for good...I can be outspoken while knowing nobody gets hurt..I can admit my own weakness coz I know they will search my strength...I can laugh and most I can cry letting down my tears without caring who's looking…while talking...I’ve realized how I’ve changed and how my life has changed..And all that I used want to be and has been, seems doesn't really matter anymore...I live for today as if tomorrow is so far ahead (half lie, coz I can get in my monotonous mode on the weekday) ...the only thing that keep my spirits alive every minute of my day is my love towards people that I care most and the thought that they has always been there for me and loving me in each of their own way... plus I've promise CH that I wanna grow old with him...most of my life I let nature work it cause…and I know God has fated the best for me…

Sumthing struck me when they (yeah this circle of people that I’ve meeting asked me when will I leave my job...live my dream as the perfect housewife...I smile and I smile again...yeah words were spoken, reasons were being given, justification and so on and on..yet I cud not answer to myself…when the time is right I guess...very subjective...typical me....

However, I'm glad...that the gate is always open for me to walk through..3 years back the gate was lock and guarded...slowly the guard left...then the lock were unlocked...And now the gate is wide open...just waiting for me to walk through...I will, god willing...but before that I want to ensure I'm emotionally ready to walk through it coz I'm hoping deep inside once I walk in...I want to enjoy every minute in it without any hesitation for turning back...

So let me just hang around a little while...enjoying the view from a far, anticipate what waits for me there...I know there is possibilities that the gate will be locked again...but I'm taking my chance here...after all that’s what life is all about : ) erm...yer ker?

Excited

We are planning for a short gateway..Just the 2 of us, and timing is just perfect coz this 8th May...its our 11 years of being together : ) Syukur , Alhamdullilah to Allah SWT for letting us to be together till today, I know our time may sound immaterial to some, to be honest I dun really care about numbers, as I always believe dat love should be timeless, doesn’t matter how long or how short of a time you know a person if you can click well then it will just do…my case in particular, when I first met him, everything just went well , true there are some obstacles and we still do face some challenging moments together (mana ada hubungan yg sempurna, tp kita cuba untuk berasa selesa dan membuat yg terbaik dlm setiap hubungan kita sesama manusia), but deep inside I just knew he’s my person…and God willing he will always do.

A’way, about this trip…suddenly I fell really funny (that make me wanna blog this), it’s a short drive, short break but my preparation is like we are going there for a month! For God sake, dari semalam dah start packing ok! Huahaha…CH called me in the office this morning, and told me that he’s happy too see the way I get to excited..thehheee…

I was communicating with a friend regarding this trip…and she reminded me to bring all important stuff that I couldn’t live without there…of coz this picture collage is for her! ( Bersungguh2 aku mencari gmbr2 ini dari google ok untuk menunjukkan betapa serius dan excitednya diriku ini tentang ini ;p ). Thanks for the entire suggestion babe!

Ok Avillion…here I come!

God Decide : He Gives and He Takes...

For all the joys and sorrows that I’ve been through for the passed few weeks:-

- God decide best for us, he gives and he takes, we cry as that is part of natural process we let goes our emotions…but that doesn’t mean I’m weak, I know deep inside I’m strong…
- Our relationship grew stronger, not just between CH and me but between me and my parents and between me and my in laws also with close family.
- A friend in need is a friend indeed – the meaning is very broad for me, but I know what I meant and only that matters.
- I become scared but I know I have to overcome this fear, I know that I’ve to be more positive and not think about the past …I know, yes I know only thing is …it’s not that easy as it sounds.
- I believe I have equal chance for it to happen again, Insya-Allah a smooth sailing one.
- Finally an experienced that I’ve always wonders how it felt...
- Dugaan kecil, yg mungkin terjadi untuk mengelakkan Dugaan yg lebih besar...
-I love him more than any word can describe, for all the pain and sorrow does not matter , what matter is his kindness towards me… without equal to all wealth in the world

"Tidak kufahami mengapa terjadi, peristiwa pahit mengguris hati...jalanan hidup ini, sudah tertulis, ku tempuhi dengan kesabaran ku sedar kebesaran mu - Tuhan "