Technically what happen last evening was not entirely my fault, but I guess I dun mind taking all the blames…If really something happen to this child of mine, I would never ever forgive myself, so I guess that’s make I’m entirely at fault.
What hit me the most was the feeling of being overly worried over the safety of this unborn child, for the first time my motherly instinct or feeling has swept everything inside me. Perhaps this is the feeling that will be felt by all mothers whenever danger is threatening their child. A feeling that makes you want to cry out loud, cursing your every action and all unreasonable acts you wish you could do just to make sure everything is ok. Weird I was allowing myself to cry (because of the pain definitely) but all the unreasonable act was locked inside of me like a proper grown woman supposed to act. But my heart and my thinking was chanting Allah SWT name and Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) name without stopping, praying all my heart can that this child inside me is keep to safety all the time. How I pray let me feel all the pain but not him…I realized at that moment how I love this child so much that I’m willing to do everything to make sure he’s in good condition.
What hit me the most was the feeling of being overly worried over the safety of this unborn child, for the first time my motherly instinct or feeling has swept everything inside me. Perhaps this is the feeling that will be felt by all mothers whenever danger is threatening their child. A feeling that makes you want to cry out loud, cursing your every action and all unreasonable acts you wish you could do just to make sure everything is ok. Weird I was allowing myself to cry (because of the pain definitely) but all the unreasonable act was locked inside of me like a proper grown woman supposed to act. But my heart and my thinking was chanting Allah SWT name and Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) name without stopping, praying all my heart can that this child inside me is keep to safety all the time. How I pray let me feel all the pain but not him…I realized at that moment how I love this child so much that I’m willing to do everything to make sure he’s in good condition.
Dear God, please protect this child of mine from every danger and threat that may encounter him. Please destined him good life in this worldly world and the hereafter. Prolonged his life for the purpose of good deeds and end his life with a significant good ending, for he’s my child in this world and hereafter. Amin.
